Out of control

My eating is out of control. Ever since Halloween my weight has been going up .... that's NOT the direction that I want to be going !!!!!

Yesterday I weighed myself and nearly had a heart attack at the number I saw. Today I weighed and it was TWO pounds MORE !!! Of course, being that it's that time of the month AND eating half a bag of Chex Mix at 10:00pm last night doesn't help, so I'm thinking most of that 2 pounds is water retention from the sodium. But still ... the other weight I've gained is ridiculous. I am the heaviest I've been since June. That makes me so mad. I know my trainer must be disappointed in me. I guess all I can do is keep plugging along and hope that my weight doesn't get more out of control. EVERY YEAR I gain weight from October thru New Years.

I get depressed about gaining, so what do I do??? I eat!! Unfortunatley, I'm one of those people that eat when they are sad and depressed. Why I can't be the type that starves and whittles away ??

None of my clothes fit. The only thing that fits are my FAT shorts (I nearly threw them out, good thing I kept them!) and my gym clothes.

My arm is still killing me and my orthopaedist appointment is on Thursday morning.

Arm Pain Update

UPDATE: When I couldn't even grate cheese this afternoon I finally scheduled an appointment with the orthopaedist. I'm going in December 2.

Recent Workouts

I haven't posted workouts in a while, so I decided to post the past week. I didn't workout that much, but at least I did SOME !!! Some of the weights I go really low weight on becuase of my deltoid injury. Arm is getting worse each week I think, it's really time I make an appointment with the orthopedist.

Monday, 11/10/08 - Upper Body w/trainer
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Hammer Lat Pull 70#/20 reps x 2 sets
Hammer Bench Press 20#/20 reps x 2 sets
Cable Reverse Flies 5#/20 reps x 2 sets (ridiculously low weight!!)
Arm Extensions 30#/20 reps x 2 sets
Cable Curls 15#/20 reps x 2 sets

Curl-up Crunches 2 sets of 20
Reverse Leg Lifts 2 sets of 20

Cardio: 30 minutes on elliptical, level 10-14 Crossramp, level 6-8 Resistance

Wednesday, 11/12/08 - Legs w/trainer
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Side step-up on bench 2 sets of 20
Standing Lunges off bench 2 sets of 20
Leg Extension 45#/20 reps; 50#/20 reps
Lying Leg Curls 30#/20 reps; 35#/20 reps
Calf Raises 20#/20 reps x 2 sets

Oblique Crunches 2 sets of 15
Cross Planks 2 sets of 20

Cardio: 35 minutes Bike

Thursday, 11/13/08 - Cardio
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45 minutes on elliptical
level 10-14 Crossramp, level 8 resistance


No workout again until today, Wednesday 11/19. We had the fires here in Chino Hills over the weekend and I think I had enough stress to keep my heart pumping LOL. Lugging boxes of pictures, albums, etc. into the car in case we had to evacuate (we ended up leaving voluntarily at 4:00am on Sunday morning) was good exercise.

Wednesday, 11/19/08 - Upperbody & some legs w/trainer
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Bench Press 45#/20 reps x 3 sets (last set only 15 because of deltoid pain)
Lat Rows 15#/20 reps x 2 sets; 20#/20 reps x 1 set
Lateral Raises 45#/20 reps x 3 sets

Leg Extension 45#/20 reps x 3 sets
Leg Curls 60#/20 reps x 3 sets
Calf Raises 20#/20 reps x 3 sets

Cardio: 45 minutes combo of bike & treadmill


I need to get my food under control. Each day is a new day for me.

Arm Killing Me

Almost 2 months since my last post. I really need to post more often. It helps keep me accountable and from others have said, it helps them too. Really, I will do my best to start posting my workouts again.

Things at the gym are the same and going well. I work out with my trainer Ryan on Monday and Wednesday mornings and he's awesome. I adore him. I work out with my other trainer Elizabeth on Fridays. Monday is still upper body, Wednesday is legs, and Friday is Core/Abs.

My right deltoid is still KILLING me (and getting worse) and I need to see an orthopedist. It even hurts right now, while i'm just sitting here. It hurts like hell during the night and when I am laying flat I can NOT lift my arm up unless I help it with my other arm. Some nights I don't sleep well because I can't find a position that doesn't irritate it. It really sucks!!! I am dragging my feet to see a doctor because I don't want to pay the bill (and I'm afraid they'll say surgery is needed to repair the tear). An MRI is inevitable for diagnosis and I found out from insurance that they will cover 85% of allowable charges with an in-network facility, but I have a $500 deductible for a specialist. So, the minimum I will pay is $500. Ugh. There is an orthopedic office right across the street from my gym, as well as an athletic rehab center, so I think I will go that route. My trainer Ryan said he was going to get me the number for the sports orthopedist that works with the Angels baseball team. How cool would that be! LOL I just don't want to have to drive far for appointments and it would be a 45 min drive one way (without traffic) each time I go there. The orthopedic office across from my gym is a 5 min. drive from home.

My weight ... well let's just say I am pretty much working hard at the gym for nothing. I got down to a good weight at the time of our cruise in August, but crept back up a few (5) pounds. Got those pounds off but yoyo'd back up again. I've been up and down since and i'm currently about 3 pounds over my cruise weight. It's very frustrating but it's my own fault. My eating is out of control. This is a very hard time of year for me. With Halloween candy I went crazy, then I had my birthday 2 days later, and since then I've just been really hungry and eating anything that isn't nailed down. I had a pretty good food day
today (every day is a new day and a re-start), and I worked out tonight doing 45 mins on the elliptical on level 14, so that was good.